There is a silent war inside my brain between autism and ADHD

I haven't told anyone that my Mum died last weekend, because it's not a big deal to me.

I don't want to put up with people not understanding and being weird about it.

Very few people irl know my actual political beliefs because I water them down constantly in order to make them sound more socially acceptable

I don't actually know what I'm doing. I just keep getting away with it, and I know that one day I'll be found out.

Shakira is in my playlists

i have a phd in philosophy.

i can't ever talk about it because people never respond positively. they almost always attack me for it because it is scary or something.

if i say it's english they are are a lot less hostile, so that's what I do if it comes up.

No one knows the cute little lady at work listens to extreme metal on her headphones lol. I pause my black metal and say the sweetest things to my patients.

I also know a lot of anime. Not the new stuff, but the tried and true stuff. I don’t watch it anymore, but yeah. No one would know because I don’t talk about it.

Oh and I know old school UFC too, because I’ve got Fight Pass and have been watching it (and Pride) chronologically lol.

My ethnicity mix also seems to trip people up. I get some interesting guesses!

Most people don't know that I left the Marine Corps an expert rifleman and sharpshooter with a pistol. I really miss hitting the range. It's kind of therapeutic for me.

I flirted with the manosphere for a while. I don’t regret it, but I’m aware enough of the public perception that I don’t mention it to most people today. Yes, I’m aware of the irony of announcing it here. I would simply say that it suffers from the over-simplification of groups and ideas that affect all groups today, including feminism. Are there bad elements to it? Absolutely, but even feminists admit it has good points and members. People just tend to submit to basic views of things in general.