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[-] wowwoweowza@lemmy.world 68 points 2 days ago

I hate to be the old dude in these conversations — but yeah… sometimes you just fucking deal. 90% of my life is depression, suicidal ideation, and intrusive thoughts. Ten percent is that I’m the life of the party, the fun guy at work. Honestly, in meetings, when it’s been dark, execs turn to me and say, “Wow, silver lining?”

And I deliver.

So… I don’t complain. I raise a family. I exercise. I see depression as the norm. Why would I think anything else if it is all I have ever known?

And yet of course there are the brief moments of satisfaction when I am doing service for others — which is how I see my work, which makes my life meaningful.

Cure for depression? Ain’t one. But there is service, which is the cure for meaninglessness.

You can get meds for this. If you're on them and this is where you're at, I'm sorry. But I was like you. I could function.

Then I needed meds for something else, and they stuck me on Wellbutrin, which can be perscribed to address depression or my other issue.

I came back to the doc and she asked if it had helped with my other problem. "Nope, but can I stay on?"

"Why?"

"Uh, turns out wanting to be hit by a bus isn't normal, and I had just assumed it was, and had no idea I was dealing with that constant mental hellhole until it went away."

She let me stay on the Wellbutrin.

[-] wowwoweowza@lemmy.world 2 points 23 hours ago

Hmm… yeah, you can tell I’m skeptical of the chemical solutions.

I’m of an age where tracking my own hormonal changes is hard enough without adding any variables. But I appreciate your thoughtful recommendation. And I’m absolutely delighted you know longer deal with the whole sudden impulse to fall in front of a bus. I’ve never jumped but the thought comes… it’s comfortable now I guess. I don’t know who I’d be without it.

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