I'm just completely unphased by this stuff by now tbh. The depths of depravity the ruling class go into behind closed doors really is just the worst thing you can imagine. The secret lives of the capitalist class are literally just Salò or A Serbian Film unironically. Like they're actually exactly that evil. These are literally the people who run the West and once you understand & internalize that you can't do anything but strengthen your resolve against these sadistic perverts and everything they stand for.