Answering my own question here. If you don't have any interest in how the tools you use work, programming isn't "for you" (take that with a grain of salt). If you are writing code and have never looked into how compilers/interpreters work or are using a library and haven't even taken a peak at the library's source code you should because it will make you a better programmer in the long run. And I'm not saying you can't get anything done without that curiosity but curiosity is a major part of being a programmer. Also you don't need to have a deep understanding of the tool just a overview of what it's doing. Like for a compiler understanding what lexers, parsers, ASTs, code generators are will allow you to write code with that in mind.