I don't want to live anymore.

I know life is tough right now, and it sure sounds like yours is rougher than most. As somebody who's been struggling a lot, both with finances and healt, lately as well, I can relate somewhat. I know it's not much of a comfort and kind of a cliche but: when things are as bad as they are now, they can only get better. It sucks waiting while everything sucks, but unfortunately that's all we can do. Also, look around you. There's always something to live for, even if it's just seeing the sunset again or the smell of freshly cut grass. You're right though, if only money was distributed more evenly and the super rich were taxed fairly, things would be a lot easier for many of us. In the words of the hardcore band Deez Nuts:

"money can not buy you happiness it's true what they say, but a motherfucker's still got bills to pay"