This is certainly the obstacle I had to overcome going from a more spiritually minded agnosticism to a purer naturalism. I didn't want to confront my inevitable death and ultimate insignificance. It was especially rough looking at the catastrophic risk posed by the climat crisis and plastic crisis that the human species may not last a few centuries.

I'm an absurdist now.

In some ways one can be envious of people who are able to believe in a higher power than themselves. It certainly has it upsides.