I feel embarrassed to say this, but I straight up have to use reminders to go "hey, talk to X person" and set them up in advance. Because otherwise our chats will just be me going "happy birthday" or "happy new year" and that's it for the year.

It's not that my friends aren't important to me, its just that it never occurs to me naturally to be the one reaching out. Can't tell if I'm a bad friend or if I just have zero object permanence for people lmao