It's most certainly self-hate, you're just too blinded by your own pick-me bs to achieve actual introspection. The gymnastics it takes to get from "I'm better because I say men make me sick" to "you're bad and wrong because you advocate helping everyone" is priceless.

Oh no, the child called me a spineless weasel! Someday you'll come to terms with reality. Until then, maybe consider listening more and speaking less when you're in over your head.

You seem like you're possibly capable of putting it all together eventually, once you gain some maturity. For now, though, this is farewell, as you don't seem to actually have anything of value to add beyond singing your own praises and shitting all along your merry way.