All and everything that surrounds me
Wrecks my heart in bits, and it cries a plea.
All and everything that my eyes can see
Make it hard to leash my anxiety.
I can't help myself, and my stomach hurts.
When I read such things my mind self-inserts.
It makes me believe I'm a failure.
Makes their story my own jailer.

I cannot escape, I'm not a king
Of my own lore, I am panicking.
All and everyone, friends from childhood
They are having it, having pretty good.
They have loving girls, they have families
While I'm all alone, writing up this piece.
Rhyme is jaggedy, but I try to fit
Every little line as my own heartbeat.
Not sure what I'll do when it dares to drop.
Maybe pain with it makes it final stop.

But for real though, how the fuck it did
Happen, out of all gang I'm all alone?
Feels like I just drew shortest fucking stick.
Makes me want to scream, makes me fucking sick.
Doesn't help at all that I fucked my chance
Seven years ago TWICE in a row.

Fuck the rhyme, I think I'm running out of time.
In my 24 feeling old should be a crime.
But there is a sick fucking bitch in my mind.
Talking shit, teasing with what I cannot find.
Everything and all I am seeing red.
This stupid empty head has a deathwish for a gram of lead.
Gotta stop my thoughts just for a moment please
Everything inside hurts unbelievably 
I don't take ongods, it's not how it's supposed to be
Spilling out my pain pulling triggercide of me.