Have you checked to see if the state you live in offers state assisted healthcare? There are certain states that will provide free health insurance if you fall below a certain income. From there you can choose a primary care physician within the state provided health plan and get everything from referrals to specialists as well as prescriptions. See if it exists in your area and apply immediately if so. It can be complicated depending on where you live but there are representatives that are paid to help you navigate the application process if it starts to feel overwhelming.

Sorry you're struggling. Early 20s are a bit rough, keep your head up, set goals for yourself and always set something for yourself to look forward to(like a trip, etc)

When I was 21 I was working construction jobs for shit pay, wondering if this was all that my life would amount to. I had a son I could barely afford to maintain, a shit relationship with his mom, and an estranged family. The people I knew only lived to get absolutely wasted drunk/high on the weekend. My ADHD/combative attitude got me fired from most jobs I'd had. I constantly had suicidal thoughts.

I had to humble myself, learn to listen, learn to follow, learn to teach, then learned to lead. I still humble myself every day.

I found something that interested me, studied it, practiced it, mastered it, and am always learning. In March I'll turn 30 and recently accepted my first six figure salary offer. Still no college degree.

Even when it feels like you're taking one step forward and two steps back, invest in yourself, find something you enjoy doing and then be the best at it. Life is timing. Once you finally catch wind, you're off the ground for good.

Take care.

Hugs, hun. You have a lot going on, and early 20s are rough emotionally. You need and deserve help. Without knowing where you live it's hard to give exact info, but this site is reputable and even used by social workers to help their clients: https://www.findhelp.org/

Do you have goals you want to achieve in life?

Do you have a love interest?

Do you go to the gym?

Is there stuff you usually enjoy doing as a hobby?

Those are the kind of questions you should be asking yourself right now.

If you can't give a positive answer to those questions then you should definetly go see a therapist.

So sorry to hear you're struggling.

Try contacting charities, maybe related to your conditions, they may be able to offer guidance.

Chances are there are some social systems that can help you. But it can be really tricky to find out about them.

Sorry to hear...