Let's seeee, I'm from a very conservative country, I was raised to be polite but that didn't mean not being racist or everythingphobic lol , kids pick up all kinds of brainworms from their environment, I had a lot of free time and I was a teenager, I loved gaming and having stuff to watch in the background on my phone, already a recipe for disaster.

Eventually I found all these conservative sloptubers who compalined about this and that being woke in gaming or in movies or comic books, and since I was already predisposed to that garbage I just went "yeahh that makes sense" I was watching all kinds of hogs like the Critical Drinker, a fucking loser who roleplays as a jaded alcoholic even though I bet a drop of rakia would instantly kill him, E;R, an actual staright up self-admitted nazi, other hogs who I don't remember the names of, basically none of them were good.

I was never into the more "presentable" talking heads like the Ben Shapiros and such (I thought he was a boring smarmy gay loser or something along those lines lol)

I never had a label for myself, I believed in a random mix or lib shit and unhinged nazi shit (a lot like the average American I guess) again I was a teenager and all that edgy garbage was very appealing to me (think old Filthy Frank and Idubbbz, also two massive losers), it was like a secret club of online dorks who weren't "afraid to offend anyone" you can clearly see why that would be appealing to loners with too much free time.

Oh and one more thing, there was never anyone to tell me no, be it family members, people irl (who were all extremely conservative and would easily agree with everything had I shared my thoughts) or my online friends at the time, who were a random mix of mostly Americans, all of them some shade of "apolitical" people or just straight up liberals

How did I get out? I'm not too sure, I think one day I was just hearing the same rediculous arguments on repeat, over and over again, I guess what was my limit and I snapped, I was genuinely too angry at these sloptubers and such for being too terminally online losers (even tho I was also one lol ) so I decided to look around for other slop to consume, this is where the libbed up Breadtubers came in, they were the other side of the coin, I was checking their dedicated subreddits and hearing ahh they are so good and smart, you GOTTA check this and that person out! (🚩)

Then I watched a fuckton of the "classic Breadtubers", I liked how they dunked on the conservatives, but when it came to their actual politics I was rubbed the wrong way, things just weren't clicking, I remember watching Contrapoints a lot (🚩🚩🚩) and if you know anything about what she's done throughout the years you'd understand why I was again feeling tired and angry (one example, the disgusting transphobic comments she made about another trans woman who was being recorded after yelling at a cashier for being misgendered, that was from the Cringe video)

I didn't want to believe that this was it, there had to be something more out there, and well in time after searching here and there I stumbled upon actual leftist spaces, took a bit to deprogram myself from both the hog and lib strains of

So who is to blame? Well I think that sadly a lot of things aligned in just the right way and I got caught up in the pipeline, my upbringing, the lack of different alternatives at a first glance, the YT algo pushing that garbage so much, nobody telling me no, and honestly I blamed myself a lot as well, but I'm bit happy with where I am now, took a while but I try when I can to nudge things in the right way by talking to people when I find it appropriate (be it online or rarely irl when I get the chance) I don't want to see young people repeating my mistakes, guarding against brainworms seems like a neverending process lol.

I guess the moral of the story is to never get too comfy and to keep on trying to improve yourself and learn new things.

Decided to make a Twitter account for the first time ever a few days ago because I suppose you can only miss out on garbage for so long, didn't take too long to start seeing images from Gaza, what can you say about Zionists that hasn't been said already?

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