I want to be back in a stable state and doing better with myself, but I feel like I've already screwed up every chance I've had at this point. There's no way she'd take me back but it is what it is, I guess. She's really great and being with her made me feel something again.

Also, she ended up moving away and that was another big part of it. These two together just totally killed it. Of course there were other little things but I attribute most of the reason to the aforementioned problems.

Probably my mental health issues, but I honestly can't really be too sure