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My entire mental health sob story, avatar is from art I made, I'm emberinmoss.bsky.social
(sh.itjust.works)
If mental health matters, then the mental healthcare system needs to practice what they preach instead of just say things to look good for their psas. There's so many homeless people in my town and I easily see myself becoming one at this rate. Do what you can to take care of yourself. Try to avoid shitty drs and therapists. It's not always easy.
You need to be drinking water. That's the scariest part of this for me. I realise this probably plays into the delusions, so if it helps you can look at my comment history. I've made reference to it a few times already: I live in New Zealand, and I've never even been to the states. Please figure the water thing out. Being dehydrated will not be making anything easier, and it's the simplest problem to solve. Would you feel better drinking filtered water?
I got so thirsty I just gave in and drank it. And when I didn't die, I decided, screw it. The water paranoia is not always present, but if it is around for too long, what I have done is boiled the water and drank it hot. I think a water filter could be a good investment for this. Thank you for the suggestion. And I'm sorry this was such a heavy post. Thank you for your response. Yes, it's been a wild ride on the crazy train. I don't recommend this ride, I give the crazy train one star review.
I've been there. Not really with the water thing, but I thought I was being watched, and that my GF was working for the CIA, my workplace was a front, and everyone working there was faking it, for the purposes of monitoring me, etc. That shit is scary! I was aware on some level that I wasn't being rational, but man, your own brain can be sooo convincing. I had that stupid fucking Nirvana line running through my head the whole time "just because you're paranoid, don't mean they're not after you." It's never really gone away, but I've found ways of managing it for myself, but live in constant fear if it getting bad again. So when I say this, you can trust it: I really do understand, and I sincerely hope you figure it out. All the best mate