You just need to wear something bright--doesn't have to happy bright though, could be like a bright green skull on your shirt or something, bright coloured shoes with black attire. Own that spooky vibe. Lean into it. Be proud of it. You're not soulless, just a spooky ghoul and spooky ghouls are great.

I posted this and then ran away (or rather, rolled over and played dead possum), but I'm back and not dead yay. I actually had not even thought about this. Thank you. I know one family friend of my mom's. They're someone I could maybe talk to, it's just that I'm so severely anxious to approach anyone. I will try.

I got so thirsty I just gave in and drank it. And when I didn't die, I decided, screw it. The water paranoia is not always present, but if it is around for too long, what I have done is boiled the water and drank it hot. I think a water filter could be a good investment for this. Thank you for the suggestion. And I'm sorry this was such a heavy post. Thank you for your response. Yes, it's been a wild ride on the crazy train. I don't recommend this ride, I give the crazy train one star review.

I'm sorry this got so heavy. It's been a lot this month. Stupid brain not working. Yes, absolutely. A vegetable and a walk can help, there's no denying that. It won't cure it, the disorder I have called schizoaffective disorder, but it's still better than nothing. I got some red peppers and a glass of water. All set.

Thank you. Yes, I haven't completely given up hope. I know this post was extremely heavy and uh, I was having a moment. I have schizoaffective disorder that runs in the family and it's been kicking my ass recently. Which is also why it took me a whole week to even look at the other responses. I think I might post on Lemmy what I've learned about this mental disorder. Even though it's been hell to endure, having knowledge about the enemy in my head has given back to me some power. There are a few good neuroscience videos on the how and why of psychotic spectrum disorders like schizophrenia and schizoaffective.

I support your journey wherever it takes you.

Everything has a double meaning now but can't deny I love a good poem. Thank you.

I'm saving it.

Sure it did. Kidding.

Yes. I read about that. It feels like we've been left to rot. Maybe we have.

Not good, Bob. ._. If you are still a young whippersnapper, take care of your mental health, don't be like me and let it get worse. This just snuck up on me. Now I can barely leave the house and electronic devices scare me. I am completely serious.