It takes a bit to become aware of it, but you get there eventually. I assume a version of everyone figures it out eventually.

I'm currently living in the "hell" as you say, although its not all bad. If you ever get too anxious about it or depressed to the point it would negatively affect your outcomes you will quickly find yourself without anxiety, depression comes and goes.

I don't know what to do other than my own plans.. Really what sucks the most is the loneliness in the knowledge of this reality. It's extremely isolating. Recently I've been in and out of what I can only describe as a form of insanity.

Imagine knowing you couldn't die and you are stuck under capitalism, all of a sudden the things capitalism uses to keep you in line lose their power over you. Well at least in spirit anyways. Its still extremely hard to even quit your job because I guess there aren't enough timelines/probability yet where you survive off the grid outside of capitalism.

You try to say the words "I quit" to your boss but nothing comes out, or you are too scared, or you rationalize why you didn't say it, etc.

Every day I plan to and try to leave capitalism. Every time I try I stay on a path that will lead the world to be more friendly to the "least" of us.

Anyways I don't know where else to talk about this stuff so I made this post. Thanks for listening.

Well all possibilities are possible, so you get a sense of choice even though any choices that would lead to your death are unseen to you or simple not taken.

I've found the futher ahead you plan the more likely something is to happen so there is still a little choice. I've never been able to plan any of these suicide boxes that other people have mentioned tho..(not in any real sense anyways.)