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this post was submitted on 19 Aug 2023
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I was a bully to the whiny and sensitive kid in my friends group. Everyone kind of poked fun at him so me being a kid, I did the same.
I genuinely apologized to him 10 years later as it was gnawing at me all those years and he didn’t accept it. He told me how the teasing messed up his self esteem and contributed to mental health problems he still deals with.
I felt so unbelievably awful for having that effect on him for all that time that I didn’t know what to say. I figured if I hurt him that much the best thing I can do for him is disappear completely. I haven’t been very social since out of fear of hurting someone like that again. Keeps me up sometimes and I find myself thinking about it when I daydream.
Sorry to hear that's how it went. Good on you for actually apologizing, I hope he can eventually forgive although it seems that's going to require a lot of introspection on his side too which isn't easy. Bear in mind that in spite of what you did, you are not 100% responsible for how things developed on his side. There are so many factors affecting mental health and self esteem. If you've truly changed then you will know better than repeating the same mistakes in the future with someone else, so don't let that hold you back.