Hmm im not sure anything I can say will truly help, but I'd like to try. But I hope you're okay. I know things can get pretty tough in life, and your outlook seems pretty bleak given all the ups and downs. But I really hope that this degree works out for you. The fact that you're at a new university tells me that you still care enough to keep trying.

Even if we are in hell, Im happy to know that one person is stubborn enough to pursue something they're passionate about in the odds of it all. Seems like a fitting way to stick it to the system and do what makes you happy.

Anyway, I hope your situation improves. There's at least one stranger out there rooting for ya :)