I can understand the aversion, especially when it is so ever present in our society.

The thing is, why shouldn't it be? Sex is completely normal, natural, and frankly incredibly important to us as a species. It's only slightly less important than eating and breathing. Not necessarily on an individual level, but as a collective. Sex is the reason every single one of us exists today.

Unfortunately many religions like to use it for control, they connect it to shame, evil, weakness, corruption. They work very hard to make something that is inherently beautiful into something their followers fear and hide from, leading them to engage in deeper cultural taboos. After all, if watching porn is already a sin, and all sins are equal, then there's no difference in looking at the Venus de Milo or watching graphic rape. This criminalization of normal sexuality is incredibly depressing to me.

Anyway, at this point I'm just rambling about my own issues. I do hope that you come to find peace with it, even if it never appeals to you personally.