oh, dude, it's fucked how hard it is to just sit down and do nothing. like even to just sit there and have a few sips of coffee in the couch in the morning looking out at dawn progress, all I can think is "I should clock in and get to work so I can clock out earlier"

I've really been trying to work on it this year, but there's just so much I want to do. and then I have little motivation to actually do it after a long annoying day at work having had to make too many decisions and deal with too much bs that somebody else should have handled.