It's amazing how much ADHD I've been fighting moment to moment without realizing it.
I work in a bit of a chaotic job where work is generally self directed and I get a constant flow of email, messages, and people coming to talk to me. I just got my ADHD diagnosis and have an appointment for medication coming up. I decided to do an activity log to see what I was doing in a day so I could compare before and after medication.
I tried to plug in my phone 4 times in the span of an hour before I finally did it. Like had the end of the charger and my phone in hand and got distracted because I realized I forgot/needed to do X, Y, Z. I set out the day with a goal and before I knew it I had a half dozen half written messages, a longer Todo list, and no work done towards what I needed. Guess what I'm doing this evening? Lol
How long has this been going on? I knew I was struggling with motivation and focus, but it blows my mind how present it is moment to moment.
Fingers crossed for medication.
I would highly recommend doing an activity journal as a point of reference. Within a day it has already put things into perspective for me.
Yes, that's exactly the feeling. https://youtu.be/AbSehcT19u0
I hope you are able to find a doctor and get some relief.