I hate living in a world of symbols

Like having to be constantly aware of when sign represents some seemingly unrelated essence, whether the user intends it or not.

See someone with a fedora and neck beard and it's supposed to mean they're misogynist.

My choice of masc or femme clothing sends a signal of my identity whether I want it to or not, and there's no such thing as a neutral base that sends no signal, like if I put no effort into it I still send a signal, I'm just unaware of what that signal is. Everything is this-coded or that-coded and to try to be not-coded is a statement rather than a lack of one. There's no such thing as a non-statement.

I just want to float through existence as a pure essence, interacting with other pure essences.