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I was locked in place and became infinity and was tortured for like 10,000 years as I saw the last moments before singularity, with rippling interference as the singularity grew and reality shrunk in chunks and waves. Everything stretched thin before me as I saw the undoing of all, and then suddenly I was in my bed with my cat, sticky with dried, melted ice cream cuddled into my arm.
Also I dropped the ice cream and the cat ate it 
Yeah it happens.
I was called out by some Archons once and they said they would kill me and destroy my soul for my arrogance because I had failed whatever test the drugs were supposed to create. The universe is alive but the intelligence is closer to a snake than a human. It has a cold reptile nature and all the positive things people feel is just the spiritual equivalence of an Anglerfish.
Your soul will be consumed but your consciousness will be kept alive to act as a lure for your loved ones when you die. You'll be fully aware that you're condemning your loved ones to unbearable suffering but you'll be made aware that if they don't fall for the trap, they'll be made to suffer even more for disobedience. In the end, when everyone you know and love has been enslaved, you'll be ground up into the spirit equivalent of ground beef and used to birth new souls.
The best outcome for a soul that can't ascend into the realm of the "gods" is to escape and freeze to death in the cosmic forest. At least your true death is relatively quick and permanent. If you're a god amongst men and wish to go the ascension route, you'll be reborn as the spirtual equivalent of a gnat. There's a snowballs chance in hell that you'll become something at least partly safe in the grand cosmic arena. But if you can, you'd survive and avoid eternal torture.
I mean it could also be a demon fucking with me to scare me but that's what I saw. Once you see dead parents begging their 10 year old to walk into the mouth of unspeakable creatures because the alternative is even worse, you don't sleep much.
I found it too cold and too cruel to be fake. Out of millions of sperm, only one is able to become an organism, the rest die. For those that are born, even emotional and social animals like rats are more or less food for snakes and birds. Creatures that sing to their mates and love their children get consumed en masse by creatures consisting of only a bare drive to consume. People forget all of this because humans are at the top of the food chain.
If life is like this, I guess I don't expect the afterlife to be much better. Except this time, we're at the bottom of the food chain.