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I was locked in place and became infinity and was tortured for like 10,000 years as I saw the last moments before singularity, with rippling interference as the singularity grew and reality shrunk in chunks and waves. Everything stretched thin before me as I saw the undoing of all, and then suddenly I was in my bed with my cat, sticky with dried, melted ice cream cuddled into my arm.
Also I dropped the ice cream and the cat ate it 
I smoke like a chimney to deal with chronic pain so there is that
I do something very similar but for emotional pain
That too, also crying a lot and masturbating until the loneliness gets tolerable again