I understand that I have to relax every now and then, however I am really struggling with it, being constantly in an endless loop of:
- Having a lot of energy and doing a bunch of stuff for a couple of weeks.
- Getting exhausted to the point I cannot control my impulsions and wreck my daily routine
- Try to rest only to fall in a depressive state for a couple of weeks.
- Collect myself up and repeat from step 1.
Trying to do low effort activities like watching a series or playing video games, is addictive, I stay up late without being able to stop, and end up more tired.
The hobbies I like require focus, and that's what I am trying to avoid. Examples include programming and chess.
Going out with friends is nice but drains my social energy, after a couple of weekends out I need to stay in.
Chores sometimes work, but other times I feel guilty about the state of cleanliness of my home.
So, how do you relax/rest? Got a magic recipe? Are you struggling like me?
Edit: I just want to say this community is awesome, thanks for the support.
With the book, let yourself be bored and drop it. Follow that boredom into sleep. You don't need to read; the reading is a tool to help you relax.