cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/29716299

It's been like this for the past few weeks. I've tried 6 different pharmacies, 3 of which were large chains, and one of which was an online ordering service.

I read that there have been supply chain issues for the past few years, but for every supplier of every mom-and-pop and big-name company to be put on back-order at once has never happened to me before.

Does anyone know what's going on?

The only group that's ever accepted me and has welcomed me without doing that so far has been my local drama group (and, of course, this place :) ). There, it seems my "Golden retriever" energy is always welcomed and in fact valued. What's been your experience?

A humorous and clever tattoo I found online.

CW: suicidal ideation

Firstly, an apology. I've posted here a couple of times during low moments and then never followed up. Received a lot of helpful and sympathetic comments each time and it's kinda shitty I've never even updated my original posts about things being better (because they are).

Onto the meat. Between a couple of long-term relationships and long periods of not really looking for a partner, I hadn't realised I'd managed to get to my late 20s without ever having to 'date'. Both my serious relationships were friends that progressed onto the next level.

Emotionally, this stuff is devastating. Matching with someone who seems interesting and attractive, and they cannot/will not genuinely engage in conversation. Having an amazing conversation with someone in an evening, and then nothing ever again.

Worst are all the feelings associated with RSD when you're not sure there's even a problem. But you are certain there's an issue. How'd you explain that to anyone? How'd you explain that to them?

Idk why I'm posting this rant. I'm sorry for disturbing you all. I don't even want someone to tell me I'm wrong or right or anything else. Selfishly, all I want is for someone to tell me:

'Yeah, no, you're right there's something wrong with you in particular. You really will never be happy and you're right, you shouldn't be here. No, you're absolutely right, there's an unplacable ugliness to you that you can't fix and everyone will always notice.'

I don't know what I'd do if someone confirmed all my worst fears but I think it'd make me feel better? Like things made sense? Like I was correct about something for once.

Sorry again.

My boyfriend (44m) was finally diagnosed with ADHD after decades of being in need of medication, and steadily declining mental health. A psychologist diagnosed him, but he can't prescribe the necessary stimulants.

A couple years ago, after he realized he was drinking way too much to cope daily, my bf got a prescription for medical marijuana in TX to help with his PTSD. He has been taking that steadily since then. It's the only thing that helps him feel relaxed, and he would take it every day after work, and on weekends.

The only other doctor he's seen in years (primary care) basically told him that if he prescribed a stimulant, he would require a drug test, and if there was any THC in the drug test, he was "legally required" to stop prescribing any stimulants.

1. That's a lie, and we're damned angry about it. It is entirely up to the doctor's discretion to drug test, and which drugs actually would be a problem. We don't want to go back to a dr that lies to us.

2. He's tried stopping the THC before, and only lasted a few days. The inability to ever feel relaxed is just suffering, plain and simple. Without it he's a constant panicky mess, forgets to eat, can't get comfortable just sitting down, and can't calm down, ever. He gets maybe 3 hours of sleep a night.

3. I'm sure eventually, once he's on the proper stimulant dose he needs, he'll feel much less need for the THC, if at all. But how is he supposed to stop before he gets the right prescription? Especially since he was taking so much daily that it might take months to leave his system?

My question to you all is: do you have or know of a psychiatrist / family care doctor who can prescribe stimulants who practices in Texas, that either won't drug test or will actually understand about ADHD sufferers and THC usage and won't hold it against him getting the right medication?

I'm watching him mentally and emotionally deteriorate every day since he stopped taking the THC. It's only been a little more than a week, and it's getting worse and worse. I'm worried he won't make it the four months he thinks he needs to get it out of his system completely.

Thanks for reading and thanks for caring. If you have a specific name for me, please send me a DM. I know our country's healthcare is a shit show, but I'm trying to do whatever I can for him.

You might not like it, or you don't want to hear it at all. But the thing is, for people with ADHD to do simple tasks, they need to mentally break down the process/task and do things 1 by 1.

I'm guessing that most of you know, some of you don't know and the rest of you know but don't implement this.

For ADHDers, Doing simple tasks like taking a shower, making a cup of coffee, cleaning your desk always seem very hard and require a lot of motivation. Or it has been perceived as such. Now, I'm not going further into explaining the brain chemistry behind it. But, what happens basically is, brain gets familiar with feeling overwhelmed to move the body for the things it deems as unnecessary. So it reduces our willpower, drive and desire to do and feel certain things. But it does all of these subconsciously. So we can't detect it in real time.

But we can perceive. As soon as we start to observe ourselves from a 3rd person perspective, as soon as we start to question our actions, our brain get exposed to us. We can see, feel, and know about our behavior that's been directed by the brain in real time.

All these time, there has been the messenger chat head circle floating in a corner of my phone screen. Now, if I had been the person I was 1 month ago, then I'd get easily swayed by the chat-head and would forget about writing the post.

So, what to do in these kind of situation? Not only we need to perceive ourselves as an outsider, we need to constantly question ourselves about our aim, purpose and priority.

So, no matter what spicy conversation people are having inside my messenger app and I get to see the number of messages increasing through the floating chat-head, I have been questioning myself from the moment I started writing the post. Such as:

1. [ My name ], is messenger that important to you right now?
2. [ My name ], Are you going to fall into the same rabbithole again?
3. [ My name ], is this how you decided to make a change?
4. Don't you wanna help people who have the same problem as yours?

-- Upper discussion was the first phase. Now the second.

So, in order to literally complete the tasks that seem difficult for us to do, we need to mentally break it down to multiple points/methods.

Meaning, we need to have our inner monologue explaining all the consecutive methods to finally complete the task. Another questioning session. But this time, questions come with actions.

For example, let's assume that you're reading this post laying down in your bed and you're thinking of making a coffee. So, instead of thinking, "I need to make a coffee", Ask yourself, "What do I need to do to make a cup of coffee?"

Then break down the process. Mentally.

Think to yourself, "First, I need to put the phone away." Immediately put the phone aside your bed or on your bedside table.

Then again, Think to yourself, "Then I need to get up from the bed and start walking towards the kitchen." Immediately get up from the bed and start walking.

And the methods go forward. Try to break down a task as detailed as possible. And perform each action after you've thought it.

Ultimately, you need to make your inner monologue a weapon for yourself against your lazy brain, not for it to become a weapon for your brain against yourself.

When you face minor distractions along the way while completing a task in this method, acknowledge the distraction, observe it, analyze it's destructive effects over your life by using your inner monologue, questioning session.

I had to get up from my chair to shoo off a cat 7 paragraphs ago, but I didn't ignore the act as a distraction. I kept questioning myself similar to what I wrote in the 1st phrase. Turned out, I didn't lose much drive and desire required to write this long post.

Most of you know this method. Some you don't know and the rest know but don't implement. That's my personal observation here.

Pardon my cluttered and complex long sentences as English is not my native language.

I'd like to know about your opinions, advices and experiences on this matter if you're happy to share. Peace 🤝

Does anyone use poison pill rings to keep their meds in them?

@adhd

If you do, what are some potential issues I might have with keeping my #adhd #meds in a locket ring? How can I tell if a ring's secret compartment will be big enough? (For context, I use Amoxetine (generic Strattera), which is only available as a caplet)

a nightmarish scenario came to reality for me yesterday!

so - a month ago, my brother got me an interview for a place that I was really looking forward to starting with. as soon as I got the call for the interview, I mentally noted the date - "28th! let's do this! I'll be so prepared!" I spent some time getting some basic notes ready, then went off to easter break to see family before refining my notes and preparation in earnest.

except, it wasn't on the 28th. it was on the 22nd. which I didn't find out until the morning of, 15 minutes before it was happening, thanks to my brother messaging me wishing me luck. I called them to apologise and begged them to schedule me in later - they gave me 30 more minutes. I cried the whole way getting there, then bombed the interview. I got my rejection pretty swiftly, and I'm so devastated.

how the hell does this happen?? this isn't even the first time I've conjured fantastical dates for appointments and events! I even had my confirmation email to reference, which I just immediately decided was still set for the date that I believed it was. I've always felt upset at how disorganised and absent-minded I am, and it's hard to not see this as a massive character failing. how can I hope to bounce back from something like this? things like this really make me feel like incapable of operating like a normal human being.

I just wanted to brag about this app with colors and objectives! I can get distracted, and still remember to keep cleaning. When I see a room is in red, that means back to cleaning xD

I'm not in anyway affiliated with the app and just wanted to give them some free add time. The app is called Sweepy and it cost me €17 a year. For the help I'm getting from it, it's worth it.

I hope this helps my ADHD homies out. If anyone has other apps they use through the day, please share!

Not sure how much of a thing this is but I like to have shows playing softly while I sleep, what are your shows you like to help you sleep?

Screen off of course

Cross posted to some other Lemmy AuDHD related subs.

cross-posted from: https://lemm.ee/post/60653809

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Attention is important. The ability to direct your attention where you want is important. If you can do it well then you can do tricks like "concentration". Concentration is necessary for careful doing and deep seeing. Every engineer, scientist, artist, lawyer and professional thinker needs concentration to do their job.

People with ADHD have a problem controlling their attention. Or something. Normies aren't too good at it either. (Is the ability to concentrate on stuff that you don't really care about, to do that a lot every day, a power or a weakness? Good question but beside my point).

Meditation is all about getting better at using attention. Getting better control over it, seeing it doing its thing better, learning its ways.

We basically have 2 techniques. In the first one you practice concentration. It's a skill that you get better at. And then you take it deeper and you learn a lot. You gain a superpower.

The second one is trickier but better.

The Buddhists call the techniques samatha and vipassana.

Learn to ride the waves. We have a different rhythm of existence. You can't fight the cycle, but you can learn to work with it.

Some people are marathon runners, but we are sprinters. The trick is to break down marathons into many sprints, and take breaks by switching your marathons.

Just pick half a dozen things your meta-self wants to work on and stick with it. Instead of a bit of everything, we do a lot of everything, but one thing at a time.

Hey all,

not sure if this is an ADHD thing, but it feels like it is. So, I'm a mid/senior level engineer who's been coding professionally for a while now. Before LLMs dropped, I used to get a legit dopamine kick from fixing even the tiniest bugs and getting things to compile. Tedious debugging and diving into docs? Bring it on! It was all part of the fun.

But ever since LLMs came along, that spark has kinda vanished. I feel like my skills are fading by the day. It's like I can't bring myself to code manually or look things up anymore. I know exactly what to ask LLMs and how to fix issues, but the thought of doing it all manually? No thanks.

Now, the only time I get that dopamine hit is when I can implement entire features that should take days in just a few prompts. Anything less feels like a waste of time. I hate feeling so dependent on it, especially since I know the code it spits out isn't always top-notch. I know how to fix it, but I just can't bring myself to do it. Especially tools like Cursor with its agentic coding make it even harder for me to leave prompts behind.

Coding used to be my passion, and now it feels like LLMs has messed with that while boosting my output. Anyone else feeling this way? Any thoughts or advice?

A good friend of mine is falling down the Xitter to Red Hat pipeline and it has me thinking about how to get better at remembering sources of information or, hell, just remember certain topics long enough to research them thoroughly enough to be able to speak at least somewhat eloquently about the topic.

Fairly confident the friend is going to follow the path he's going to follow, so I'm not looking for advice on that.

I'm 35, with diagnosed ADHD and brain scarring. My memory feels so fried and it's almost Impossible to finish a task. Where I live it's almost Impossible to get actual medication for something. Doc always gives herbal treatments and it helps nothing.

Is there a way to help myself without meds?

cross-posted from: https://beehaw.org/post/19161653

Rule

Literally have no idea what I think about them other than that it seems like a hopeless exercise. Its kinda worrying, like the meds can make you hyperfocus on things and make you paranoid but who knows, they could be right?

Altho it is a great bandwagon for the name brand dominating med companies to jump on, very easy to turn people away from generic meds that must have some baseline of quality assurance and clinical efficacy?

Uggh, just don't know. Wish everyone could take the brand name cheaply like its easily possible to in many places outside the US. Dex cost me like 1.50 a pill before insurance and like less than 30 after total. Its almost 1500 in the states. Insane