I hear you on the meds. I'm not sure I'm to enthused about those but people keep saying they help so I don't know. I also know I need to change my behavioral habits I've developed over the years but it's not easy. Just going to go with whatever the psychiatrist says and gk from there. I'm just so tired of my own crap at this point. And yeah, weed made it easier to just be. And I don't think you have to take medication if you don't want too. Don't think they will force it on you.