I wish there was some way to know that my fears about bottom surgery wouldn't come to fruition. That I won't lose sensation or run into complications, that the anaesthesia will keep me under and won't cause issues, that I'll be able to have access to proper pain medication afterward and won't be left to suffer through it with ibuprofen or have to find my own solutions at my own expense.

There's soooo much that's promising but talk about a scary barrier.