I completely understand. It's sort of insane and completely wild how much you can love something that isn't even the same species. I've got a dachshund who's been plagued with spinal problems. He's been paralyzed twice to the point where I literally had to express his bladder for him, and we've gotten him through it. They're special, and so important. I really hope he's going to be okay. Do you mind if I ask what's going on with him?