My guy, I hope you find your something. I can't even imagine what life would be like riding high on testosterone. I'd probably smash every bone in my body at some point. I'm glad I am just impassioned and not blindly raging. Cause legitimately, things have for sure gotten crunchier out there and it takes some real strength to realize how unimportant so much of it is. Yo, you seem like a real character foreals. You ever think about getting in to some kinda martial arts? Cause one guy I met who was an old-dog former military type had those fabulous cauliflower ears (you know which ones I'm talking about) but he seemed calmer than anything. And maybe finding your way to something like that might legit connect you to that primal thing you liked about the military =)! Also the reason why I said what I said is because I know PTSD is a bitch and legitimately I've heard both young men and military men kill themselves are a higher rate than others and I just wanted to say keep yourself safe cause you seem like a good guy who's going through it and I know when you're going through it stuff can get cloudy.

I know you're not old, hahahaha! But I also know you're not a spring chicken =)! Always fun to talk to you, my brother hahahaha!