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For me personally, it didn't really feel like anything. Kind of like taking an over the counter pain medicine, it's not an obvious change but the pain that was there before is numbed or even entirely gone. Not noticeable unless consciously thinking about it.
It took a while to find the right dosage (roughly a year, multiple hospital visits, and a divorce from a toxic marriage), but I went from being obsessed with suicide and doing multiple attempts every day to being horrified at the thought of suicide and wanting to live as long as possible.
Do you ever think it might have been getting away from the marriage that was the ultimate antidepressant? I'm starting to think 99% of the problem is environmental (like home life) and antidepressants are medicine's way of modulating a status quo that is otherwise not economically changeable or feasible to change
Honestly I don't think I would have filed for divorce before the medication. I was convinced that I was not only the problem, but that I was an evil villain, and that I was making the world a better place by killing myself. Suicide was the noble and heroic action in my mind at the time, and it's only with the benefit of hindsight, continued medication, regular therapy, and reassurances from my family that I'm able to recognize how toxic my former situation was.