[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 2 points 1 year ago

I didn't cause i had to run away just so people would listen to me and i've wanted to report them for years just been too afraid cause it's my words (depressed and suicidal) vs them so i assume nothing will be done.

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 6 points 1 year ago

Very sensitive smell so i can tell somethings burning or notice dangerous smells much quicker then everyone else tho it feels more like a curse cause a lot of smells are overwhelming and makes me sick.

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I'm not sure if this is ok to post he but.

I'm not sure if this a issue specific to my instance or it's a Lemmy problem but is anyone else having problems posting or commenting cause it get stuck trying to post it.

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 2 points 1 year ago

I don't know much about meds so did you try taking a little less AP each time or did you completely stop or did you try a different way of getting off AP?

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 2 points 1 year ago

If had a clone of myself I would cause at least I wouldn't be isolated anymore or afraid to be myself.

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submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone to c/mentalhealth@lemmy.world

I stopped going to any supports i had for 4 years at the moment cause i felt like i couldn't communicate what I want because if i say i don't know how to do some basic life skills they put me in a group with non functional people who basically have to be babied 24/7 which makes me feel too stupid for help.

Or that I sit down twiddling my thumbs the whole day cause I'm too afraid to ask if I should be doing anything at all cause I assume everything I do is wrong even if I know that's bull.

I have severe trust issues (especially with myself) so I always expect the worse in everyone which is also fuelled by a lot of "normal" or "happy" thing bringing back traumatic memories so it feels like I can't live in the happy society they have.

That I can disappear easily without a care from anybody makes me feel like there's no hope for me to improve and have a basic and normal life, that all I can be is a hollow husk who is technically alive cause I sleep, consume and poop but that all I do until nobody provides me the bare minimum.

Edit I wanted to also add I've been misdiagnosed as autistic but I did the test when I was suicidal (tell me if i should edit that out cause of rule 4) at the time so I half assed it but nobody listens or cares.

Also elight comment reminded me of being medically abused by HeadSpace where they were giving me a different antidepressant every week so I'm sure they weren't working as intended and i don't think that works for trauma but i was forced to take them cause they threaten me with ECT Electro shock therapy which terrified me and made me afraid of meds unless I'm in extreme pain and that more me running from the pain overpowering my fear of med and psychiatrist

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 4 points 1 year ago

I chose Aussie.zone cause I'm out of touch with my own country so seeing the news here is nice and cause I thought it would be easier to join a country instance.

Also optional email and I know I could make a temp email but I can't be bothered.

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 4 points 1 year ago

Anything really but if that's not a good answer then testing stuff like when i used to mod a game and l change a little thing and test how much of a impact the change had so I'm basically doing the same thing over and over again and I know most people will find that boring.

Another thing that's similar to above is that I daydream about ideas more then like playing a game or watching a movie or show or looking at tech, most of it starts off as i want to fix this one thing in this media or thing or to make somethings that's missing or been gone for a while.

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 2 points 1 year ago

I'm excited cause it feels like it's allowed to be creative and weird like how Mario Odyssey got weird in some kingdoms and in the mechanics but it get's weirder compared to other Mario games with fully voiced characters and not sure if I'll be exclusive to the flowers.

The Toad at the end shows they're open to redesigning character so we aren't stuck with generic Mario characters all the time and might show different and weirder variants of npc or baddies not ties to wonder parts.

Playable Daisy in a mainline Mario game. I never expected it to happened but it adds to how weird this game is cause I honestly expected Pauline to be playable before Daisy would and hopefully she's playable from the start.

also playable Yoshi and a 4 players can be Yoshi at the same time and by the looks of it they're the easier character with the flutter jump and curious how the riding works will the rider or would Yoshi be in control and will player start sacrificing each other to the bottomless pits.

I'm worries some the the wonder parts or powerups will become tedious or take too much control away from the player at times like when Mario's a ball rolling cause those bits get annoying in Kirby star allies so I expect it be annoying here as well but hopefully I'm wrong.

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 2 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Some instances can still downvote it just wont affect beehaw users but i don't see the downvotes either so probably someone on lemmy.one cause only notfromhere can see it.

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 8 points 1 year ago

Playable Daisy temporarily cured my depression so glad that Daisy is playable in a mainline game (the drugs probably helped) and i think Yoshi is as well cause at 2:00 all 4 are Yoshis and I wouldn’t be surprised if they’re the easy character like Toadette or Nabbit with a flutter that they normally have 1:46.

It seems you have to take LSD to get the collectables so do drugs kids?

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 4 points 1 year ago

He is but I assume it's going for a more cutesy thing or whatever villain with its LSD power chibified them cause the cover has normal looking Mario characters so i don't know.

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 2 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Not sure if it count but Street of Rogue is kinda like a 2d GTA or Saints Row only without the cars and there's lots of characters with completely different playstyles like you can go guns blazing as a soldier or play as a pacifist doctor who can't really fight and has to use stealth or other means to do objectives or be a gorilla rescuing other gorillas who's very strong but cant talk to people or use guns or be a zombie who weak on its own but once it gets going you'll start the zombie apocalypse.

There're also these mutators which can be used as accessibility options cause I use it to slow the game down but it can be used to turn off some of the stuff that you don't like in the game.

[-] Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone 2 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Depends some games like Miitopia, Mario Kart 8D, Monster Sanctuary or modding Dawn of War Dark Crusade I've play a lot of hours cause of giving me tools for me to be creative or easily distract myself when my mind is fried, replayabily while being able to play differently or just being able to mod and rebalance the game.

Some of my favourite games are short like Wandersong and the Steamworld Games

Some of the games i play a long time also give me idea of games i'll never make

Some games i know i could of played a lot of hours i don't cause of isolation and that online doesn't fill the hole of local play so now i don't play online games even if i'm interested in them or like playing them.

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submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by Mekboy_nutkrakka@aussie.zone to c/nostupidquestions@lemmy.world

I ask cause I don't really want to make multiple accounts yet and I'm not sure if I'm just missing the option in the settings or am I just blind.

Edit: i found out that the Lemmy i'm using doesn't have the option to toggle NSFW in the settings so either the option get added or i create another account for NSFW stuff

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