at least find a way to collapse the replies!!!

pinning the favorite digimon post is violence

almost started a mini struggle sesh in the mega about whether being a short guy is a disadvantage in dating following another thread. got some food in me and thought better of it. but fr the short version is that some of ya'll are omega coping as an overcorrection for incels coopting a very obviously real and socially acceptable form of body shaming that is rooted in patriarchal conditioning. got more extra in my previous draft but that is the short version, it's a completely valid thing to feel insecure about/to have body image issues about.

i don't even want to be taller i like my height so miss me with that shit. i like feeling like a pretty little half elf prince of thieves. but i'm also realistic about how it effects my prospects with cishet women.

i wonder if god/the universe is keeping tabs on how many times i've run my hands over my face in my dark apartment alone at night and said "FUCK it's all so FUCKING empty" often followed by "goddamn it i want a drink" because this exact sequence of events happens kinda a lot

listening to up my sleeves by death grips on repeat is actually a sign of strong mental hygiene and a potent will to live. this increases exponentially the more hours the subject loops the song in question

is a dozen n a half matches in like 2.5 weeks across two apps good numbers for a dude dating women? this is only when i pay up sadly, it's a draught when i'm on the free versions. and ofc most of the matches don't even become convos let alone dates (simply the nature of the format)

lookit this nerd over here having feelings and shit!! couldn't be me!!!

(nah i know it's a good thing, and if i found this once i can find it again. but on the other hand aaaaaaaaaaaaah we both love each other why cant we just be together!!!! )

(but i also know life isn't that simple, sometimes our mental shit and traumas and hurts are stronger in a given moment than our drive toward love for someone else, and/or people have incompatible goals even if they have deeply compatible personalities )

im trying to keep up with the younger zoomer memes so i feel less

finally beat BG3. feel a similar bittersweetness to when you beat Persona 5, having to say goodbye to all of my imaginary friends....

when i do the shameful thing of paying to win on t*nder when that shit goes on sale, i will say the fact that i get a few matches a week when i swipe left probably 90 percent of the time (and the matches tend to be One of My Types in some fashion or another) is kinda validating. its like oh im not actually an undesirable wretch, people i think i could be into actually also do think im a "would" when they actually are shown my profile and its not buried by the algorithm.

called out of work again because sleep issues + depressed + drinking. i really should be saving more of my leave. because of the union contract management can only really make : / faces at us for using our time but eh, if im trying to get promoted at some point it could hurt me. honestly i just despise working 9-5 mane being woken by a grating alarm at a time before my body is ready is one of my like bottom 5 mundane prosaic small daily displeasures

response to ur edit: ah yeah I have heard much abt the fabled situationship. dodged one with a colleague I was close with recently-ish when it was clear we were on different pages in terms of what we wanted...still wonder sometimes if it was the right call. could have been even more confusing and hurtful and resulted in things ending even worse if it went on, but eh, things ending the way they did made our job like 10x shittier and nuked our friendship. i'm brand new to modern dating cuz i was practically married for almost 9 years, so idk, this shit is all alien to me still.

but ya honestly, while often difficult, I feel like staying friends is nice when possible. like this person was once/still is a special connection & human to you, if it's not too painful for both parties its ideal to be able to sustain that, even in a transformed form. but idk, i get why it can be too hard sometimes. life can indeed be a wild trip my friend. i hope whatever arrangement ya'll land on ends up being for the best, in any case. love is a wonderful thing and it sucks major ass when it dies. probably healthy to take things one day at a time and listen to ur intuitions/emotions and to let things fall where they will. or not, idk, im just a fuckin idiot lmao