some people do not thrive on intimacy and closeness. for some people, maintaining more than one or two deeply emotional relationships requires more energy than they can commit.

it sounds to me like you have a habit of running headlong into other people's boundaries without really considering their perspective. it may leave you feeling shut out, but it takes a lot of energy for people to set and enforce those boundaries and you'll be happier if you learn to respect them.

i have extremely low standards and i couldn't make it past the unnecessarily long winded setup. it's pretty bad.