i am actually half-white, half-asian. i don’t know what community will accept me more, the russian communities online/in the us (since i probably won’t go there) or the east asian (chinese/japanese) ones.

i clearly will not look full white and it may have people say im not “real russian”.

dad is chinese-russian, lived in germany for a bit. (baden-württemberg i think). mom is russian.

i thought this would imply some sort of death threat and have heard it quite a bit, but it may mean something else and i misinterpret it.

honestly, im not sure. i guess just any way that shows he or she cares about me can be romantic to me. maybe spending time with me and doing things for me??