“Everyone will think you’re useless,” my brain tells me, as if every person thinks that way. It thinks I’ll be shunned if I ever need help or can’t do the same things others can. People will think I’m gross and want to stay away from me because this neck brace I have to wear makes me look like some kind of sick, feral creature. I could never get a partner because I would be too much of an economic burden and my chronic conditions take the fun out of everything.

What’s my source for this? My narcissistic father, who always tells me that I’m a useless failure who will never succeed. He told me that people would react in that way. My lived experience refutes many of his claims, but apparently that didn’t stop me from internalizing them. Maybe I should start wearing earplugs around that guy.

I’m getting ready to touch grass for the first time on my own since I become disabled 3 years ago. I know things won’t be easy, but I also know that this kind of self-defeating thinking is more than useless and literally why it took me 3 years to want to go out in the first place.

Maybe I should reject my father’s framing entirely. Why can’t I put a positive spin on it? The world threw a bunch of bullshit at me, and my presence alone is proof that I didn’t give up. I kept going. If people see that as weak, that’s their problem.

I should stand in solidarity with everyone else fighting through their own bullshit and we can help each other in whatever ways we can. Life wasn’t meant to be a singleplayer game. We’re in this together, and I can find like-minded people who recognize that.

I hope my defiant spirit that’s ready to kick some ass and make lots of buddies wins out.

I'm retired so I fill my days doing whatever I want. But I'm always interested in what other people would do if they had more free time.

I got suckered. I saw some posts about how men don't take care of their skin, and how it has more of an effect as we age. So I thought, what's the harm? Let's give it a try!

Welp, after five days of putting a tiny bit of moisturiser on my face, I have a couple of tiny pimples on my nose. I haven't had zits in decades, and here we are. I stopped applying the moisturiser a couple of weeks ago and I'm still getting those zits.

Thanks skincare.

I was literally falling asleep at the toilet before the break... I need a coffee

To my brain, nothing is worth pursuing or trying. “How can you guarantee that you’ll be alive to finish anything you start?” My brain asks. And it’s right. I can never make that guarantee.

It directs me to spoil myself with instant gratification because it knows I will still be alive to experience it. There’s no risk of working towards nothing. Don’t make goals. Don’t take risks. Embrace mediocrity. Do the bare minimum needed to survive. That way, you will never be disappointed.

I’m so tired of thinking like this. It started when I got a serious chronic illness that couldn’t be diagnosed. I always manage to survive for longer than I predict, and then I look back and notice that I have done nothing for the last 3 years.

I hope that I don’t continue to make the same mistake in response to Current Events™. I’m sure that falling for it again would be helpful to the exact people I really don’t want to be helping.

What have friends of yours or members of your family chosen for each one? Someone I know is having an event and it has me wondering.

What are y'all's opinions?

I like slatted for the idea of a French cleat system where I can put some shelves or lamps up without taking up floor space. But cloth is also nice for the comfort and it seems more 'bed space' appropriate.

Feel free to have a look at

• !movies@lemm.ee
• !showsandmovies@lemm.ee
• !animation@lemm.ee
• !horrormovies@lemm.ee

That's it.

Oh, it's in the city near my small town

I've seen people using "that's what she said" in a very serious setting, as a way to say "good point/touché". They had no idea it was from the Office.

It’s been nice to see ordinary Americans open up to life in China but everyone is acting blind to their censorship. Makes me thankful for the fediverse and being able to self host my own instance.

Hello, I didn't know where to post this to, which community. I came to Lemmy with the initial reddit migration. I just play video games and smok weed mostly. Lately, the state of the world has me down. And I'm into philosophy.

Basically, in a bunch of recent posts, some deleted by me, others by Mods, and plenty still up.. I thought the term I was trying to explain was called being a Misanthrope.. Someine replied it's called Eco-Fasicm.. I didn't do enough research and started commenting about that.. I'm truly sorry! I felt it sounded wrong eventually and asked an AI called Llama 3.1 what I was really searching for.. It is called "Misanthropic Anti-Natalism". The position that human existence is inherently problematic and that the best solution is for humans to go extinct. This ideology is often based on the idea that humans are a destructive force on the planet, causing harm to other species and the environment, and that our existence is a net negative.

There is a lot more to read on this if you choose to look. Personally, I hope that a bio-phage will be created somewhere with 3d-printers in a science lab using amino acid blocks, synthetic viruses, nano-tech, powered by AI that singularly targets the Human Genome only... Release/Hack it across the planet, Unbelievably contagious.. Most Human pop dead within a week. The straggling Bunker people and billionaires will expire soon after as the air is still death for humans and powered by a defensive AI... Lol sci-fi I know.. but at least more plausible than a Genie's wish for magical extinction...

Misanthropic Anti-Natalists often argue that human beings are driven by Self-Interest, greed, and a desire for power, which leads to exploitation and destruction of other species and the environment. They may also argue that human existence is inherently contradictory to the well-being of other species and the planet as a whole...

Thanks for listening! I'd like other people's ideas on this? I don't believe in God either. Just Thermo-dynamics and Universal Entropy.. the great mixing.

I've been wanting to upgrade from my old RTX 3070 for a while now and finally made the plunge. I managed to find an RTX 4080 Super for only a little more than MSRP ($1100 USD). It'll be coming in at the end of the month from Germany of all places. Now I'm seeing the price on that exact same card (a Zotac 4080 Super Trinity OC) anywhere from $1700 to $2300 which is absolutely ridiculous.

I wanted to see what the market would look like when the 5000 series came out but I got pessimistic about the pricing. Yes the MSRP on the similar 5080 is $999, but with the upcoming 25% tariffs in the US, the remaining crypto mining price increases, AI use, and scalpers I don't plan on seeing the prices realistically going less than $1500 at a minimum.

I know I'm getting a now obsolete generation so the longevity won't be as good but even the new 5080 has the same VRAM amount (16 GB) as the 4080 series, so I'm trying not to feel too bad about not having the latest and greatest generation. At the same time I'm working with the budget I have and not spending hundreds of dollars more than needed.

As much as I like my 3070 it's starting to really show it's age. It struggles on low settings on the latest patch of Stalker 2 on 3440x1440 ultrawide, can't handle Ray tracing in Alan Wake 2, can't load HD textures in Far Cry 6 due to only having 8 GB of VRAM, and only gets marginally passable framerates (30 fps or so) on medium settings with Ray tracing and DLSS 3 performance on Cyberpunk 2077.

I'm definitely going to appreciate the uplift in quality and performance, especially considering I just dropped $1100 on a card.

This blows... Wtf is that a thing anyways, what a stupid, fascist way of censorship. It's like you getting cattle marked for life in a social media and I didn't do anything. I didn't insulted anyone or attacked any minority, it sucks because the communities I followed about the media I consume are there. And only them hold the "market" of forum like groups since Google plus death. No other app comes close to them. Posting here is like posting in a desert for that media I liked.