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my ex-best friend told me life would be better if i died.
(lemmy.blahaj.zone)
A place where you can rant to your heart's content.
The individual you are currently ranting about aside, you would not have a boyfriend or friends if they hated you.
If you have autism, then you understand that your ability to read social cues is limited, especially at your age (I don't know how old you are other than that it sounds like you are still a minor stuck living with parents). Practice and therapy do help but take time.
Avoid speaking with the person who is being abusive to you as much as is reasonably possible and discuss their behavior with an adult you trust.
Sorry you're struggling right now, but it can get better.
im 18, and tysmmm :)