i'm extremely mentally ill, with bad mood swings. i'm disordered. i exaggerate everything. i lie a lot and feel like i can't stop, like an addiction. i'm trying to stop. that's why i'm telling the truth right now.

my imagination feels better than reality sometimes. i lied once about being in a coma from a plane crash and got berated for it by my school social worker because i obviously lied, but it was a form of expression to me.

my feelings for my girlfriend and past relationships were never pure love. they were obsession. i got attached too quickly and my feelings became an attachment/obsession i'm trying to work on. i have a fear of abandonment. my love for them isn't pure it feels like, it's mixed with mud.

my "friends" would often pretend to like me while talking behind my back and later threatening me to my face, yelling at me, and saying rude things like that i should die because i tried to start a conversation with them. i later found out they were only pretending to like me and they "pitied me so they were just trying to be nice because they're nice people".

they also hated that i was autistic and would constantly bully people different like autistic people and furries.

the person who bullied autistic people and furries also tried to get me to pass a ball, got mad when it flew over my head, and in a rage, tried to throw it at my head.

this person constantly goes into rages. they get angry very easily to the point of raging and become very violent, insulting me, threatening me, and trying to hurt me, i believe.

is this average bullying behavior? that's all, i'm just curious.

maybe not exactly, but there was this one girl that bullied me for my various conditions, including my autism, and called me multiple slurs. she bullied and "abused" me every day. one time, she got mad because i couldn't pass a volleyball to her that went over my head. she told me i was bad at volleyball, that my only existence was to suck, and told me to stand still. she then proceeded to violently try to throw the ball at my head and body multiple times, each time failing or me dodging.

it honestly grosses me out and pisses me off, i’ve been severely bullied for my disorders. that’s it, just wanted to rant for a bit.

there, i said it.

it sounds mean to say, but going off of what "dave" has told me, i really don't like how his dad sounds. his dad is very homophobic and transphobic.

there was one incident when we were 17 where dave's dad had to sign a form and it said "gender:" with the options "male", "female", and "non-binary". he freaked out.

he also forbade us to hang out at a youth center because he saw two teenage girls hugging and assumed they were in a lesbian relationship.

he got mad at dave for saying hi to a girl from his school because she had bright pink hair and he assumed she was a lesbian because of the hair (apparently, he guessed right but still.)

in fifth grade, i remember dave had a crush on me and he told dave not to associate with me because i was "ugly" and "he could find better friends".

i wonder how he would feel about ME, his son's best friend, if he ever found out i was a lesbian/bi. he already doesn't like me and thinks i'm in love with dave, he's gonna hate me a lot more when he finds out i'm in a wlw relationship.

whenever dave's dad sees me, though, he has the nerve to say hi and smile.

just wanted to share this.

thank you, my handsome boyfriend ❤️

thank you, my family 💕

thank you, strangers 🧡

thank you, friends 💛

my life has been so great because of you. i think this is my time. my own self-preservation instincts kicked in, that’s the only reason im not dead yet.

i love you, i love you. thank you, thank you, thank you thank you thank you 🙏 😊 ❤️

i mean, i guess i get why. people fear or judge what they don’t understand, but to think there’s people out there who complain about how badly they were bullied and that they have no one, then throw away one of the only people who actually bothers to check in on them because they’re “obsessed”, “stalking them”, etc. and they’re neurodivergent.

i see it on social media, i hear of it, i see it in real life.

i’m willing to bet all my money that they would not say this and treat them this way if they didn’t behave differently or have any noticeable difference.

if a person who isn’t discriminated against (straight, able-bodied, white, neurotypical, etc.) asked them what was wrong they would tell them and be nice about it and be grateful, but if someone is noticeably different in some way, they treat this person with such contempt and their personality does a complete 180.

“i don’t know why they hate you so much, you’re so sweet.” that’s why. that must be why they despise someone so kind like that.

“accepting” my ass. do not call yourself accepting if you behave this way and change your behavior. just because you support gay people or ethnic minorities doesn’t mean you can’t be discriminatory for other reasons. and you are.

unless they actually harmed you, someone who’s different does not need to apologize to you for their differences and change themselves for who you want them to be.

i have been bullied for years because of my disability. it’s all they see me as. some people have even been attacked because of it.

STAND AGAINST DISCRIMINATION

like “supporting” someone with adhd but hating them and believing they should be shunned or treated differently for interrupting others, not paying attention, and not being able to sit still, rather than try to help them or tell them not to interrupt the conversation.

or “supporting” deaf people but getting mad because they only talk sign language and can’t hear what you say.

I have quite a few disorders and i’ve been talked abt and treated like shit for it, and not just because I have the disorder but because im different. I don’t fit in anywhere and never will.

all of my “friends” talk shit abt me and my disabilities, and then one person is always like “oh yeah, this person said this about you and they hate that you can’t pay attention, and that person says you should jump off a cliff!”

I asked what we meant and she replied with: “no wonder you don’t know”

then I said if she wanted to be, and that if she didn’t want me to talk to her then I wouldn’t

my good friend who i really like called me ableist. context? i was talking to her about a guy with a disability. that’s all i said, i wasn’t making fun of such a guy.

i said something like the guy couldn’t talk correctly and i felt bad for him, and i also can’t talk correctly at times (stutter)

she said i was being rude and ableist, and the older lady/teacher i was with said how dare i say such a thing and label the guy, that i should be ashamed for “making the guy on the video feel bad”.

i, too, have a disability, and they asked me, “how would you feel someone said you had a disability!?”

i said i wouldn’t care because i do. they got mad.

she and the teacher forgave me, but i don’t know how to feel about this. i’m still trying to process everything and i don’t get it.

everyone else says that i didn’t say anything discriminatory at all, since i wasn’t making fun of him or using slurs.

i have heard this a lot with downright cruelty or bullying. i’ve talked to someone and they have said “they could just be having a bad day!!”

you may think you’re helping if you say this, but it doesn’t help in my opinion.