Yeah. Some imposter syndrome in there for sure. Years of "you can do even better (at school etc) if you just apply yourself" is hard to overcome.

I'm working on the negative self talk. I intelectualize a lot, so logically I know I do a good job, but I don't feel it. So when I get 'attaboys it makes that disconnect very conscious, and I'd feel better if they just didn't say anything.