"I need to do my best to be a better version of myself."

Its important to not only acknowledge personal flaws but to work on improving them. Throughout my life when ive been negatively affected by people around me with bad attiudes and mental complexes their no.1 shield has always been "They can't help it, thats just how they are."

I hate that statement more than most political ideologies. I rebel against the truths buried in it with every fiber of my being. I'm a firm believer that, regardless of diagnosis or poor life circumstances, on some level you need take personal responsibility for your negative personality traits and poor life choices made. Its our moral responsibility to self-improve and change our nature for the better if we have any hope of working out of this mess.

I was in a bad spot with not liking myself , still am kind of, and needed to to truly believe I could change. I needed it more than anything. I needed to believe that you could change your mind/life if you never give up at it, and put in the work to do so. I am convinced that attitudes lead to self fufilling phophecy. Hard effort and introspection are required in order to truly change the nature of a person so they can become better than they were.

But its hard. Hard to make a better choice in a negative situation, hard to walk away from arguments before they happen and hold yourself back from tantrums. Hard to look at yourself in the mirror and stare into the ugliest parts of your being. Hard to move past the emotional traumas that contribute to your shitty behavior. Even harder to root out and confront the heart of darkness that lives deep in the subconscious. To come to terms with the fact you will never truly shed being an imperfect emotionally whacky sentient ape, but can learn to process and act in healthier ways.