I don't have a mental health issue and the thoughts of suicide come from a place of logic.

It may seem that way, but speaking as someone who has suffered a variety of health conditions, as well as anxiety and depression, what seems logical at the moment could very well not be. Your brain can actively work against your best interest in times of extreme stress.

You’re likely in a bad headspace right now, so I’d advise to keep working with your counselor/therapist and discuss this with them.

Also, maybe trite, but things will not always be this bad, but it will if things end for you now. Hang in there if you can. Not judging, I know what it’s like for life to suck so bad you’d rather it be over. I got through that period and I hope you do as well.

Hey, I recognize you from some of the memes you've posted and I appreciate them.

Can relate to most of what you have said in this thread and yeah... Understandable.

Still, there is more to life than other people. What about you, what you like and what you care about? Maybe now's a good time to be selfish and enjoy things just for you.

There's no logical reason to clock out early. It stops you from future happiness, prohibits any form of personal growth, and deprives those that appreciate you in their lives of you. It's a permanent solution for temporary problems.

I'm glad to hear you're utilizing therapy. It's a good tool for self maintenance.

And I wouldn't say you have a mental health issue. You have an emotional health issue. What happened to you sucks. I went through a few of your posts to make sure I wasn't calling for someone just wanting to create engagement. The fact that it's a small town and you see her everywhere you go also sucks.

I'd recommend maybe moving if it's feasible. Definitely take a bit of a vacation. Maybe go camping. Check and see if there's any retreats going on. Maybe you can get in on some form of group camp outing and make some new friends. Or at the very least meet new people who aren't part of your day to day.