Edit: Seriously, nothing, and I mean nothing helps motivate you the way stimulants can. You can't do this on your own. Your brain doesn't produce the dopamine you need to be a functioning adult on its own; you need drugs to make up for it. Fact of life; nothing to be ashamed of.
I went on Vyvanse, a slow release amphetamine, and 2 weeks later had a heart attack. I'm pretty sure it was related because I'd taken dexies about 10 years before and stopped after a month due to chest pains, and also the first day I was on Vyvanse I got chest pains again, but the doctor said it was fine so I kept taking them.
You're right, the alternatives don't work. I've tried every antidepressant and mood stabilizer in the book.
Try to work on getting that blood pressure down so that you can get the meds you need. Or just do what I do and bypass the doctor. It's risky but I absolutely can not function as an adult without Adderall so I take my chances. Hell, I didn't move out of my parents' house until my 30s, when I finally discovered amphetamines.
Amphetamines
Edit: Seriously, nothing, and I mean nothing helps motivate you the way stimulants can. You can't do this on your own. Your brain doesn't produce the dopamine you need to be a functioning adult on its own; you need drugs to make up for it. Fact of life; nothing to be ashamed of.
I went on Vyvanse, a slow release amphetamine, and 2 weeks later had a heart attack. I'm pretty sure it was related because I'd taken dexies about 10 years before and stopped after a month due to chest pains, and also the first day I was on Vyvanse I got chest pains again, but the doctor said it was fine so I kept taking them.
What is fucking wrong with your doctor
Sadly my blood pressure won't allow me to take stims anymore. It SUCKS.
(Yes, I've tried other alternatives, but they don't work for me)
You're right, the alternatives don't work. I've tried every antidepressant and mood stabilizer in the book.
Try to work on getting that blood pressure down so that you can get the meds you need. Or just do what I do and bypass the doctor. It's risky but I absolutely can not function as an adult without Adderall so I take my chances. Hell, I didn't move out of my parents' house until my 30s, when I finally discovered amphetamines.