Some of this is frustrating to me. My grandmother and half aunt were all-in on Indigenous American culture, passing it down to their children and claiming to have tribal membership. My mom had none of that. Her mom passed away when she was really young, and her dad did not keep up with the cultural practices, so my mom raised me really white. I recently did some research into our heritage to learn more about this, and it doesn't look like we have any recent Native American ancestors? Nobody seems to appear on the Dawes Rolls. I have no clue how (or if) they really were members of a tribe. Were they just larping as indigenous descended? So then Mom was probably correct in raising me in white culture, which is sad because I'd love to be part of any other culture. (not in an appropriated or fetishized way; I know I have lots of privileges that I should be using to help less-advantaged people) Even did DNA test at one point and it is very much just British from Britain. Not even Wales or some other country under the United Kingdom umbrella, just Great Britain. I am colonizer prime apparently.