I take your words for granted.

The urge exists a lot of times and I already am trying to quit cannabis. I often times notice how productive I was when I decided against cannabis use at the end of the night and could peacefully go to sleep earlier compared to cannabis use.

(I was a weekly user only or nearly monthly but never daily)

But even when I notice this pattern and understand it, I still have the urge that it will be a nice experience, even when often times its just barely doing something because of tiredness. It begins mostly with paranoia as this may be something I should memories for the next time I get an urge.