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Cope
(lemmy.world)
Just once I'd like a post where everyone is chill and positive about stuff instead of focusing on negative
Edit: I dunno why I expect people to ever be capable of being positive anymore. Dunno why I bother.
Stamets, it's not like you to let the trolls get to you. I noticed yesterday but didn't feel like you'd appreciate that from a near stranger but it's even worse today.
You good, friend?
(Addendum for any reader; I know that culturally, pet names are seen as insulting in other parts of the world, but in my line of work and my part of the country, I had to delete like 10 "sugar," "honey," "darlin" and "love"s. Please keep in mind that it's meant well if you see someone like me slip up in the future.)
No. Honestly, I'm not but it is whatever. Think I'm gonna take a break from Lemmy for a couple days.
Have talked about how I lost my best friend a couple weeks ago over on Mastodon. Before finding that place, he was the only other person in my life who was a Trek fan and who liked Discovery. Moreover, he was positive. He had opinions of stuff he didn't like but he focused on the positive. We both liked each other for that reason. In a world with so much negativity and hatred and bitterness, it was nice to be able to enjoy something together. However we both did shy away a lot from the Trek communities because of the often toxicity that brews against newer Treks. If we were online and encountered it, we'd go to one another. Talk about how silly other people were. How they claimed to be huge fans of Star Trek but often neglected the lessons of the show and wanted to be angry all the time. Couldn't enjoy things for what they were and they certainly couldn't let other people enjoy them.
He's dead now and can't say or do anything. They can. They're still around.
I'm finding it really hard to deal with a lot of people online without him. So much negativity and it's like the port that you'd shelter the storm in is suddenly gone. Just being tossed on the waves, drowning and being terrified and not having any light or anyone around.
Yesterday was just... not a good day. Nothing specific. I was just having a rough day and acted like a fool. Then me and my idiot self decided to post this meme about NuTrek and for some stupid reason I hoped that it would be positive this one time. Just once.
I'm tired of having rogue waves fling this vessel with reckless abandon.
I'm tired of feeling hopeless.
I'm tired of the reminders that he's gone.
Tired of sitting here like a fucking idiot and crying over fucking internet comments because I'm too emotionally unstable to cope with anything. It's the internet. People are always going to fucking suck. I shouldn't have expected otherwise and I shouldn't have posted this thinking anything else would happen. Also certainly shouldn't have done it when my only crutch is gone.
It's whatever. It's my fault. I'm just being stupid. Sorry for whining and i'll be back in a few days.
Sorry for your loss stamets. Fwiw, I actually like Discovery too, even if I disagree vehemently with the Klingon makeup design choices made