Frankly in my experience their excuse was mental health. Respectfully, if you're in that position, you shouldn't be organizing unless you have a real strategic reason to do so; you should be getting help from friends, comrades, and loved ones.

Edit: and I realize this sounds exclusionary, and that when you're in that bad of a place it's hard if not impossible to get friends and help. But you should focus on that before you ought to focus on trying to bring about whatever ideas you've got in your head. This is directed at real life people I've had to deal with, if that's you I hope you got the help you needed.