Good on you for noticing, and not just going 'meh it's how I am', 'it's how I was raised' or a bajillion other cop outs.

Realizing you need to change, having the impetus to do so, and actually rolling up your sleeves and fucking doing something about it are three very difficult things to do. Their difficulty increases as you proceed down the path from realization to action.

It isn't easy. You'll fall on your face several times; you may not ever even reach your goal, but eventually you'll look over your shoulder at the person you were and realize how far you have come.

That's sure a lot better feeling than sitting there doing sweet fuck all about it.

Everyone owes it to themselves to try.