Thank you for your input ^^

I'm usually a lot more positive but sometimes things happen (usually stress related) that emotionally stir up those kinds of emotions in me. I have consulted professional help and I am thinking about taking the time to do so again.

As mentioned in my second last paragraph I am feeling extremely fine usually, because apart from that I cannot really complain.

I usually try not to think about it and see the positives like not having to deal with a break up during exam time or something. But this is also why I sometimes feel even more conflicted because I know that it's just not the right time for lovesickness.