Most everyone has been to this point some time in their life. The question is how you handle the answer.

The world is cruel and doesn't care. That's why YOU must care for yourself, not kill yourself.

My suggestion for you is to take stock of all that you have to offer and then list what you like. Interests, hobbies, skills, knowledge (like can you do your own taxes or expert at filling out student loan forms, you can do construction or plumbing, etc.). Anything goes.

Now see what lines up from column A and column B and write down a list of jobs that needs/uses those things. Now you know what kind of work you can do and won't hate.

Next list what you like and dislike about your personality. Then, do the same for everyone else. You should see a pattern (i.e. I like intelligent conversations/ I dislike loud people) of things that go hand in hand. Like the loudest person in a room is usually the dumbest too.

Anyway, once you know all these things, you should be able to tell if a job is for you and if the people you'll be working with are a match.

The key is to like what you do and the people you do it with. The money will eventually come if you don't hate going to work or the people you work with. At the very least, your life won't suck. Also, never stop looking for a better job or opportunity.

A perfect job doesn't exist (unless you are your own boss) and the good ones don't always stay that way. Adjust to that reality and always be looking ahead. That is how you navigate/work the system. I am a sore loser and never back down so letting the system win is not an option. It shouldn't be for you either.

I completely understand. I'm sorry amigo. Do you think maybe some volunteer work would be an idea at least to feel productive?