It's funny you say that because I was just saying this to my wife last night. I basically said, "you know... For much of my life I tended to be pretty humble and have low self-esteem. Always doubting decisions and so forth... But then as of late I am beginning to realize that maybe that all wasn't a bad thing." The mere fact that you have some introspection on that notion I think speaks to your own intelligence. Most people never second-guess anything they do, and worst of all, they always over-extend their fucking confidence in this country well beyond their actual understanding. It drives me nuts to no end. Trump is living breathing proof that "fake it til you make it" can get you all the way to the top, which I think is why so many dimwits fall for his rhetoric.