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One day of dry February down, 27 more to go. Very close to employment, which should help with the boredom but will reintroduce some stress.

Had a good Jan overall. Finally quit booze for good this time, have almost two weeks now (as of this Saturday). Went back to only eating fruits & veggies, feeling great physically and getting my sleep schedule back on track. Kicked energy drinks the past couple of days too, was getting too much anxiety, switched to tea and feeling much better now.

Been sticking to a daily routine of getting up early and hitting the local trail with the pup for a couple of hours, feels good to be able to enjoy little things like that again after not being able to while I was drinking. Going to be looking for a new job soon, which will help my financial situation tremendously and definitely my mental health with not having to scrape by, what I have now isn't cutting it by far.

Also working on studying up on addiction and the SMART recovery program, planning on becoming a SMART Recovery meeting facilitator and possibly a recovery coach at the local mental health clinic down the line.

Overall, things are getting real positive for me, it has been a long time coming and I couldn't be happier at my progress. Only thing I need to get better at now is making a daily writing practice a habit, I want to become a professional writer but I have to really commit to taking the time to write for more than just short bursts. Other than that, things are awesome ;)

This week I went running on 5 days in a row. Last year I went running on 50 days, my goal for this year is at least 100 days.

My January stats:

• Reading: 20x
• Meditation: 15x
• Running: 6x

In February, I want to continue with reading/meditation/running and also focus on socializing.

half a week of a running deload, but now starting more formal race training. going to put ego aside and restart going at the plan's suggested volume pace (though my "long" run was a little too long yesterday) -- hopefully that will let my body continue to reset. went on a 5k trial earlier this week -- really not a great showing (perhaps not eating in the day leading up and drinking too much water before contributed to very poor side stitch; also weak grit/psychological fortitude for the back half of the what, last 4 kilos (lol)). but still shaved off some time and the v02 calculator reports that i have a good margin to beat paul ryan's real marathon time assuming i can train to compete at the full distance, which is my only goal. also i'm doing better at keeping my slow runs slow, losing just a little speed but keeping heart rate down.

goal this week is just to stick w/ the base-week training and not get injured; hope to work on my cadence, which is also not great.

I feel like an idiot trying to get good at this music, its so god damn hard.

I hate rich people for sucking up all the air from people like me, I hate our education system and I hate this country. I hate my job I hate everything. This shit is not fair, I just want to do this all the time.

January was ok. Still just a very up and down month in so far as getting back into the habit of working out and just my life in general.

February, just hoping to continue the work that I've put in the last week as I'm getting into a groove working out. Also finally taking some PTO after 7-8 months of work. Want to at least take a quick day trip just to see something different.